Thanks for reading Hajar, hopefully I’ll have some lighter things to write soon. Writing this did make me feel lighter. I appreciate you sticking with me through this time, it means a lot ❤️
I think we all grapple with that heavy question at some point, wondering why we have to face so much hardship. It definitely takes time, age, and experience to navigate those tests and try to trust in Allah's plan. I really feel your pain, and I’m so glad you are focusing on your physical strength right now. It’s incredibly important!
I need to get back to the gym too. I think we have very different struggles in this moment in life, though the feelings they manifest might be very similar.
Congrats on moving out! Agency and control can do wonders, though I'm sure it isn't easy either being on your own now. But I hope it's a net positive overall.
I'm curious (genuinely), if God does exist, then should He not be good? Even if He is the One who created everything, including all evil.
This reminds me of my grade 10 math teacher heh. We would get into deep debates all the time during lunch when I would go sit with him in his class. He would say for example, "what sin did a baby commit to have cancer?" We never did get anywhere with our discussions/arguments, but it was a very fun time that I look back at fondly.
I’m sorry to hear your struggles are manifesting similar feelings. Let’s hope with time things will iron out.
Moving out did have an overall positive effect, I don’t feel confined by the choices of others impacting my life. But that also means I have to take accountability for all my decisions.
I’m not sure I understand your God question, but I’m glad you had a good time debating with your math teacher in grade 10.
Leena Leena Leena!!!! welcome back girl i’ve missed you so much and reading this was bittersweet. sweet that you’re back and trying to do better, bitter that you’re going through all that but hang in there girl! please share any drawings with us, i’ve also been doing lots of that (i will text you soon in sha Allah) also what’s the new insta? recently made a personal one as well
all in all, i’m so so so so proud of you Leena S! you’re that girl 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
Hey Zay!! Thank you so much for your kind words and for sticking with me through this time. I appreciate you being here!! I do feel like things will turn up, I just gotta stick around long enough for that!
i love love how you always put ur heart out, maybe it’s the air which is making us feel like this i have so much to do still i do nothing and just rot that’s it. but i am so glad you choose to move out of this place of emotions and start again. because it is the time when people stop and stuck but you’re moving that’s an achievement itself and i am super sure air will turn back and you’ll have more clarity also congrats for moving out ✨✨✨
Leena, thank you for sharing your heart, and I think it’s natural to struggle in such a seemingly purposeless and repetitive existence. The dunya - without understanding - was made this way. I think struggle means that your soul is looking for more. I have personally found answers for a lot of the similar questions I was asking, in the Islamic branch of Tassawuf - the study of metaphysics and purpose of the unseen. I can send you an event to attend if you are interested. ❤️🤲 May Allah give you ease and healing, beautiful girl. And all of us Ameen. May He keep us steadfast and in supportive community 🤲
phew what a heavy read. thank you for letting us into your heart.
Thanks for reading Hajar, hopefully I’ll have some lighter things to write soon. Writing this did make me feel lighter. I appreciate you sticking with me through this time, it means a lot ❤️
I think we all grapple with that heavy question at some point, wondering why we have to face so much hardship. It definitely takes time, age, and experience to navigate those tests and try to trust in Allah's plan. I really feel your pain, and I’m so glad you are focusing on your physical strength right now. It’s incredibly important!
Thank you for reading Amina!! I appreciate you being here!
oh my 🥹 leenah… sending you lots of love hugsss and prayer from here 🤍
Thank you Hajarrr!!!
I need to get back to the gym too. I think we have very different struggles in this moment in life, though the feelings they manifest might be very similar.
Congrats on moving out! Agency and control can do wonders, though I'm sure it isn't easy either being on your own now. But I hope it's a net positive overall.
I'm curious (genuinely), if God does exist, then should He not be good? Even if He is the One who created everything, including all evil.
This reminds me of my grade 10 math teacher heh. We would get into deep debates all the time during lunch when I would go sit with him in his class. He would say for example, "what sin did a baby commit to have cancer?" We never did get anywhere with our discussions/arguments, but it was a very fun time that I look back at fondly.
I appreciate the honesty with which you write.
I’m sorry to hear your struggles are manifesting similar feelings. Let’s hope with time things will iron out.
Moving out did have an overall positive effect, I don’t feel confined by the choices of others impacting my life. But that also means I have to take accountability for all my decisions.
I’m not sure I understand your God question, but I’m glad you had a good time debating with your math teacher in grade 10.
How’s everything going on with you?
Leena Leena Leena!!!! welcome back girl i’ve missed you so much and reading this was bittersweet. sweet that you’re back and trying to do better, bitter that you’re going through all that but hang in there girl! please share any drawings with us, i’ve also been doing lots of that (i will text you soon in sha Allah) also what’s the new insta? recently made a personal one as well
all in all, i’m so so so so proud of you Leena S! you’re that girl 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
Hey Zay!! Thank you so much for your kind words and for sticking with me through this time. I appreciate you being here!! I do feel like things will turn up, I just gotta stick around long enough for that!
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i love love how you always put ur heart out, maybe it’s the air which is making us feel like this i have so much to do still i do nothing and just rot that’s it. but i am so glad you choose to move out of this place of emotions and start again. because it is the time when people stop and stuck but you’re moving that’s an achievement itself and i am super sure air will turn back and you’ll have more clarity also congrats for moving out ✨✨✨
Thank you!!
Leena, thank you for sharing your heart, and I think it’s natural to struggle in such a seemingly purposeless and repetitive existence. The dunya - without understanding - was made this way. I think struggle means that your soul is looking for more. I have personally found answers for a lot of the similar questions I was asking, in the Islamic branch of Tassawuf - the study of metaphysics and purpose of the unseen. I can send you an event to attend if you are interested. ❤️🤲 May Allah give you ease and healing, beautiful girl. And all of us Ameen. May He keep us steadfast and in supportive community 🤲